i should be studying...

I have a lot of things on my mind today...especially surrounding identity.

Why am I so prone to identify myself with my accomplishments, how others view me, or how much someone wants me around?

Im sure this has to do with my innate need to be independent of Him, who has created me in His image.

Sometimes I get so caught up in what I think I am supposed to be doing or in my perception of others expectations of me that I lose the freedom that He has bought for me to be... me.

I believe lies that I have no value if I cannot serve others or be for them what they ask or if I feel any unpleasant emotion.

I am frustrated. I dont know how to talk about it because I dont know to whom to talk or what I am even upset about exactly...myself, my actions, my thoughts, or someone else.

In the end, the Truth is that He has given me all of His righteousness as no cost to me. How is that possible? Because in the beginning as soon as sin entered the world, God planned its solution through His magnificent Son who would, at great sacrifice, deliver the death blow to evil and rescue me. Rescue us.

My frustrations are a deal to me, but He has already fought for the solution and is working things out for my good. This is the truth that I must preach to myself each day to believe that I have value, no matter the circumstance or opinion of humans around me.

Its ok if I want to feel frustrated?

Breathe.