Not really though, I cant complain. In the last few weeks I have quit my job, had confrontational conversations with a few different people, picked up lots of extra work, prepared for the summer, and become way more in tune with my dang emotions.
My weeks have been jampacked since I got into grad school and I cannot complain. I love my life the most when A) lots of people are in it B) when Im a busy body C) when Im able to truly serve others. These have all been happening in my life lately!
The majority of my time lately I have spent either sewing or babysitting. Two of my newest hobbies. I finally finished my costumes for "Hairspray" and they looked good. I am not a professional by any imagination of the word, and so they had to do their own alterations, but hey I scored some free tickets. Lol.
I have also become convinced that somehow motherhood is in my future because of all the babysitting I have been doing, like so many families lately. There is apparently an insider network, that once you are good, people spread the word and bam there you go, busy everyday learning the different kinds of poop. Seriously, I am no longer afraid of poop...so many kinds it becomes barely gross anymore.
On a similar note, parenting is freaking hard. You have to love these curtain-climbing, crumb-snatching, ankle biters beyond their filth while they are screaming and spitting on you while throwing anything they can get their hands on at your face. And just think of them as the miracle that they are. But then, oh then they sit in your lap and cuddle with you and imitate your faces and kiss your face and they truly make the world right..for a fleeting moment before something catches their attention like your long hair that happens to be in reach.
They do prove how precious life is and what a gift it is that the Lord loves us in our sins. Children have no idea sometimes, and sometimes they do mean stuff on purpose, and it is those times when you are so close to shaking them around, you realize that we have the same broken behavior as adults and Jesus loves us enough to die for us.
He truly is our savior.
Sitting on kids has helped me to see how God sees and loves me anyway.
I am so looking forward to nannying for the Walker family on beach project this year. I may have to start a mini blog for the silly things that Keller, Owen, and Lawson do paired with the Akers, Terrell, and Stubbs boys this summer. This will be a blast.
